We like to distract ourselves from pain and hurt and depression. Throwing yourself from one thing to another, from study, to business, to relationships, to the pursuit of success, to self-destructive behaviours…anything, anything to stop from feeling the full force of it. It hurts to feel it. Who wants to feel like that.

I don’t know. I think maybe we have to, eventually. To take away everything you’ve used to cover it up and just be able to look at yourself and see what you are without those things. I’m trying to do this, and honestly I don’t know what I’m gonna see. Probably just a scared kid. A scared kid with a lot of scars who needs a bit of love and encouragement, mostly from myself. When we strip us all back…I think we’re probably all just scared kids. I don’t know why we’re all so afraid to see that.

You’ve gotta let yourself feel it. Maybe then…hopefully then…we can start to heal.

I don’t mean to be cheesy, I hope I don’t come across like that. I hate generic cliche advice, mental health and depression are so much more complicated than that and I value each of you far more than to give you that. But I think this one is for me. I hope maybe it can help you too.

Take care guys. I hope you’re smiling today.

Penny